Finaly a good day!

Today was the first day in a long time that I didn't feel totally horrible. I did a lot of cleaning when we got home from my in-laws and I think I over did it cause my tummy is hurting. Other than that most of today was a good day. I am extremely irritable and got into it with my hubby, but who doesn't have those days. He is really awesome, but just pushes my buttons. And lately that is really easy to do. I can't just let things go, even when they are tiny trivial things. I'm to moody, and very sensitive right now.

I hope this means that the nausea is gone! Keeping my fingers crossed!

Bummed out today!

I am so bummed today! Hubby was supposed to take me shopping and the kids were gonna stay with the in-laws. He's really tired today, and it isn't that big of a deal except I was really looking foreword to going somewhere without kids! Now that doesn't seem like it is going to happen! So here I am pregnant and moody and I know it is probably just my hormones but I feel so bummed out about the whole thing! I actually had a hard time sleeping last night because I was so excited! Oh, well. Worse things could happen. Plus, I feel sick from eating junk food all day! If I eat a lot of sugar I end of feeling crappy!

Loosing sleep

I don't know if its because the holiday excitement or the pregnancy, but I am tired and can't seem to sleep. Part of the problem is I am already having trouble getting comfortable. I am a tummy sleeper, and that position is slowly becoming painful. So I have no energy to spare. I also have the most horrific gas so stand clear! I have no idea why. I have had problems with constipation, but adding whole grains to my diet have almost eliminated that. So I don't know what I've eaten, but it is bad. Worse at night so just don't crash in my room! I can't get rid of the nausea no matter what I do. I have to eat round the clock! I am freaking out cause I feel like I am gonna get so fat, and I am already overweight! I know I shouldn't worry about it, but I can't help it. Having two kids already has taught me how hard it is to lose the weight once its on!

Second PreNatal Check Up

This appointment was a total disappointment. My doctor is a very busy man and everything is rush rush. I don't mind so much except I am feeling so miserable and he has no solution. I have been having a lot of pain his answer is that it is my ligaments stretching! Ok fine! Take Tylenol. Well that is fine but he didn't even look at me or do anything to make sure that is all that is going on. He told me to take it easy and stop lifting. Well I have 2 kids that are too little to not pick them up at times. So he said lift with my knees and get ready cause its only gonna get worse as I get bigger. Which is fine, and probably right. However, what if that's not the case. What if its one of those one in a million situations, and he didn't even look at me to see what is going on. The babies heart beat was fine and so is my blood pressure. I just would have felt better had he done more. Or maybe an ultrasound just to make sure. I have lost weight I went from 195 at my first appointment to 193.5 which is not a bad thing at all. Since I am already over weight, and really bummed out about being so big!

How am I feeling...do you really need to ask?

I have not been able to sleep well the past 2 or 3 nights. I am so tired that when I left the house today without kids I still turned on the DVD player, in the car for the kids who were, yep at home! I am so tired that if you want a clean dish it is probably in the dish washer, and hopefully I remembered to turn it on!

Also my breast have been tender and sore again lately! Like I needed that! One more thing on my body to ache, great! My back aches from the base of my skull to my butt! I think that is because of how I've been sleeping.

My scar tissue from my previous c-sections has also started itching lately. So from time to time the scar itches, but it is on the inside so there is nothing I can do. It is the weirdest feeling I have ever experienced. When I try to itch there it actually kind of hurts and feels so odd!

Plus, if that wasn't enough I feel nauseous all day long most days! I feel like I'm on a boat or something. I don't feel like I am going to or even could vomit, but the nausea is there none the less. Sometimes I wish I would just vomit and be done with it! Nothing I do seems to help it go away totally. It doesn't seem to matter what I eat! The nausea meds don't do to much to it. The sea bands help more than anything!

So I don't think you really wanna ask how I am feeling?

The best part is that my husband is amazing. He doesn't complain no matter what I do or, I really should say, don't do! He helps out with what he can around work, and when the kids will let him. He's the greatest! I'm so emotional though tomorrow I'll be on here complaining how much a jerk he is (LOL).

First OB appointment

I had my first OB appointment on the 3oth, I think it was a Friday I know that! They took blood for all kinds of tests, did a pap, and did an ultrasound. They doctor says everything looks good. He said that I am 8 weeks and I am due on 6-11-10! Which can't be right because I know the first day of my last period was after 10-4-09 and the days just don't add up. However, I don't care a week early won't hurt the baby. How I see it is it helps me out more, meaning one less week I will be pregnant! I will be having a c-section, again, and doctor usually schedules those 2 weeks prior to the due date. So I should have the baby on 5-28-10! Unless something happens to change that!

I am excited, sort of! It is hard to be excited when you feel horrible and totally exhausted. The doctor said I am not a high risk pregnancy, but I am at a higher risk of miscarriage or something else going wrong because of the multiple pregnancies in such short time. Plus, the scar tissue from the previous c-sections I have had pose a problem as well.

So far I haven't been sick much I threw up a couple times, but mostly I feel achy and tired all day with a lingering feeling of nausea. For the nausea the doctor did recommend Sea bands, bracelets for sea sickness, and they have helped out quite a bit! Worth a try to anyone out their having troubles with morning sickness. Just bad enough that I don't get much done these days.

October 24, 2009

This week has been hell. I started feeling a little nauseous Monday, and it slowly got worse as the week progressed. Today I woke up at 6:00 am just so I could run to the bathroom and vomit! That was great. Then I felt horrible all day long. I am so tired. I am not getting any thing done. Our house looks horrible. I haven't had dishes piled up like this in years. My poor husband and kids have to deal with cranky impatient sick mommy all day. It is awful. I cried today and told my husband I can't do this. His smart ass asked if I wanted an abortion. I replied no I just wanted someone else to be miserable for 9 months not me! Like him! I seriously don't know how I am going to get through this. I know things are going to get worse before they get better. I think it's a girl, because my daughter made me this sick, but my son didn't. I feel nauseous no matter what I do. I get super thirsty then feel sick for drinking to much water. I feel like I am on fire, or freezing cold. I feel tired, and just yucky. I have no energy. My breasts ache like hell. Plus, I must be sleeping differently because my neck aches. I toss and turn all night, and feel like I haven't slept at all. I wake up throughout the night with my stomach burning.When its not the pregnancy keeping me up the kids are taking turns waking me up through the night. Evie is potty trained (mostly) she wakes up once or twice a night and goes potty. Of coarse she wakes me up to! Christopher wakes up, and drinks from his bottle or plays with my hair. Then I wake up if hubby is tossing and turning or just getting up. I am suck a light sleeper I think I need my own room, one that is freezing cold because I get hot the most at night! I know I will get through this I have no choice. I just have to take one day at a time, and just ignore the dirty dishes. I'll get to them when I get to them. I also am buying more quick and easy foods, because I can't guarantee I will be up to cooking when it's time to cook!

October 14, 2009

When we got home I sat down, and like a wave I felt horrible pain throughout my breast. It was awful like they had just ran a marathon! I sat there and told hubby, "Oh, man my boobs hurt!" He joked and said, "Got milk!" I didn't find it funny! How can you laugh at anything when your breasts feel like they were beat up. I lasted a while and finally I can relax! Plus, now the kids are asleep! I had antibiotics a couple weeks ago, and thought it gave me a yeast infection. So I bought an over the counter treatment to help. It was on the safe list, but it didn't help at all. It made me worse. It's slightly embarrassing so I won't go into details, but it sounds like a Bacterial infection according to this online doctor. I am talking to a Gynecologist online at justanswer.com. Thankfully I only have to pay him $18, and not the $75 I'd have to pay at the emergency room. Which is were I am headed if I don't figure something out. Still I am not sure what I think about their website and services. At least it gives me piece of mind for the time being. I'll still call my doctor tomorrow. The information from the online doctor will at least help me know what to say to my doctor's office. Hopefully that will help out my cause here. I can't have some type of infection for 3 weeks, with no answers. I am so mad at my doctor whose office said he can't see me for 3 weeks. I am also mad at the doctor's office because when I called the first question they asked me was what insurance do I have. Hello, you're not only interested in money! What happened to caring about your patients??? We live in a messed up world.

October 10, 2009

I had a lazy day with a long nap! Thank you nana, papa, and hubby! Hubby has been great! Watching the kids for me and making food for me when I don't feel up to it. Thank Goodness we were visiting the in-laws this weekend. The extra help is a Godsend especially since I was totally wiped out! I really needed some sleep! I have been feeling so tired and blah lately. Today I felt nauseous but not! If that makes any sense! So thank you to my family for letting me lay around all day! I could get used to this! Unfortunately, our lives gotta return to normal on Monday! Weekend getaways are still sooo nice!The thing I don't like is that my scar from my C-section has been itching! It feels wierd, and it is uncomfortable! It usually doesn't last long! Oh well that is probably something I will have to get used to. I'm sure it will only get worse as things stretch in there!

October 9th 2009 I'm pregnant!

Yep, It's official I am certainly definitely pregnant! I had my doctor order a blood test today! So there is no doubt! I have mixed feelings! Of coarse I am happy and excited, but I am also worried. Babies cost A LOT! Plus, they need lots of attention, and I already have 2 who need lots of attention. I don't want to short change anyone! I really worry about that. I don't know if that makes sense or not, but I can't think how to put that into words, without sounding harsh. I don't mean it negatively, but it is a huge concern for me. I know the kids probably won't care, but they won't ever know anything else either.I have been really tired lately for about 3 weeks (I think). I have also been cranky (moody), and impatient or less patient than normal (which is probably more than the average Joe!). You don't survive Irish Twins without having a lot of patience already! I have been eating more too! Which I don't need to do. I am already overweight! The worst thing is I crave Pepsi, so bad! Some days all I think until I drink a pop is PEPSI!I also have been having cramps the past 3 or 4 days. At times I feel like I am being pulled apart. I just don't feel good, and I don't know how much of this is normal. I imagine it is totally normal. Since I've already had 2 C sections over the last 2 1/2 years! I also get a sharp pain when I cough or sneeze. Which in the past when that happened I was told it was a cyst rupturing, but I wasn't pregnant then! I will probably ask the doctor to send me for an ultrasound on Monday to make sure that everything is ok in there! I'm sure it is, but it would be nice to know for sure.

October 8th 2009, freaking out

Well I told hubby the news or maybe news! As I figured he is excited! He did say that this means he's gonna have to be nice to me (if I am in fact pregnant)! I'm left with one question, "You're not nice now, and you know it? Hummmmmm........The plan for now is to keep it between us and see if I can get a blood test tomorrow to confirm it either way! So hopefully I can sleep tonight!I did ask a friend about it and she said the same thing happened to her with her first child. She said the reason she had negative results was because it was to early for that particular test. I know that one of the tests I took (the positive one) said you could get results as early as 4 or 5 days before your period was due! We shall see!

October 8th 2009

I have been really tired lately, which I just chalked up to the kids not sleeping through the night. Despite the fact that they rarely sleep through the night and I should be used to it. Then something my mom said the other day got me thinking. Out of the blue she was drilling me "Are you pregnant? Are you sure? You're sure your not pregnant?" What the heck she's nuts I thought.Then today as I was going to the bathroom I thought what the heck I'll take a pregnancy test. I had 3 of them, one left over from a few months ago. My husband insisted I was pregnant so we bought tests, and I was right no baby! We still had a test. It was a double pack name brand "Answer," since I had that I decided to take it. It was positive! I peed on it longer than 5 seconds because I didn't read the instructions!So I freaked. I had 2 tests I bought at a dollar store and decided to take those as well. They were both negative! So I'm not sure what to think or do! I don't want to tell anyone if I'm not pregnant, but I want to know. Maybe the first test was better than the dollar store ones?????I have no idea what to do, but I am majorly freaking out!!!! I don't even want to tell hubby yet. I think he wants another one right now and would be bummed if I wasn't pregnant. I will be happy and sad. I know another one would be more sharing of me for the kids and I don't think that is fair for them since they are so young! I wanted to wait until they are a little older and more independent. I don't want to have to rush them!